minggu ini terlalu panjang.terlalu panjang untuk diharungi.makin hari makin lambat masa berlalu.di tempat kerja, aku buntu. tidak lagi mampu berfikiran waras dalam mengharungi masa yg begitu lembab. penantian adalah penyeksaan.

aku masih di sini.mengharapkan sesuatu. sesuatu yg tidak tahu akan menjadi.biar masa menentukan.

aku ingin bercuti.tapi tidak tahu arah tuju.aku ingin ke terengganu.namun,aku tidak mempuntai cukup wang untuk ke sana.aku ingin mengambil cuti tahunan.tapi aku x tahu nak memberi alasan apa.semuanya tidak masuk akal.aku ingin demam.kerna sudah 4 hari tekak ku terase gatal.namun hingga ke hari ini aku tidak demam2.aku tidak berdoa untuk h1n1, jauh sekali.aku sekadar mahu bercuti.adakah kerna aku tertekan di pejabat? tipu la tertekan. mungkin tertekan kerna tiada kerja yg penting dan semuanya siap dgn cepat tidak mengambil masa yg lama. tapi, perkara ini menjadi tekanan kerna, masa berlalu terlalu lambat.lambat3.

sudahla aku merapu seorang diri.smorang tahu.

updates?

- work;
1. so far ok la. tipula if i say 100% ok or not ok at all. if at all, i should have left deloitte months ago. but i did not. well, theres some time when im so depressed coz i want to finish my work but still i cannot coz got lotsa distraction...not kind of distraction yg x berkaitan dgn kerja, tp people who push me around to do her job. i know im a junior, but its not fair. i just wanno do my work.my portfolio. thats all. not yours or any 1 else.

-life;
1. no comment. terlalu banyak if nak start pon. xtau nak start kat mane. anyway, las friday was my 4th anniversary with my bf...gonna celeb8 it tomorrow.. well, actually we've been together for about 8 years..( 4 + 4 years ) huhuhu. ok full stop.

- thats all for now.

What can i do

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go

And who knows I might feel better, yeah

If I don't try and I don't hope

No more waiting, no more, aching...

No more fighting, no more, trying...

Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine

I'm just going to let it fly

there's a lot of things to tell, but i dunno where to start.
i dunno how to tell.
i dunno what to say.
everything seems wrong.
but still it is right.
things are getting worse.
but i fell like its getting better.
what did i do wrong.
when everything seems alrite.
why they always make me sad.
when they say never think of that.
we've go too far.
we shouldnt look back.
if i have faith,y cant you?