ESOK HARI RAYE ESOK HARI RAYE

WISHING ALL MUSLIMS

SELAMAT HARI RAYE
MAA ZAHIR & BATIN

aaaarrghh..when it will stop!

KENAPE...
kenapa smua ni jd kat aku.aku buat ape kat kau yg kau suke sktkn ati aku sgt2.
kenapa ko prangai cm2 a?
kenape ko ni x abes2 lg x sdar2 diri pas2 kate ak yg gitu plak
i had enough r ko tau x.
menyampahnye!!!

KENAPE
kenape
kenape
KEnApe!!!
beNciNYE!!!

TORN

yup.and it HurTs a lot.but i need to move on.no matter what is await in front of me, still i need to move on.i just need some time and space to get my self back on track.i need to be tough at least for myself.i have a dream, wish lists to make it come true. i cannot follow my broken heart and in the end i lost everything.can't i? i wont let it happen. I'll handle all possibilities or impossibilities in front of me with full-hearted.xde sape2 boleh halang.no one.





*do you really thing i care?? i don't and i wont!!

tonite

tonight, staying up late surfing the internet,wasting times..
tonight,i thinking of things that happened to me..things happened for reasons.yup.i suppose i believed in that because its happening now.and i think happiness is on her way.
i don't know what should i say or write, i just feel i want to.
so i pun merepek merapu dan meraban..

after 4 years living in a place where i used to not knowing anyone, now i feel like i belong to the place. its upsetting thinking of sooner or later in a month or less i will living.living all the memories that I've created.moving onto the new stage of life.i learn a lot in the 4 memorable years. life.friends;some are true friends,some pretending to be a friend.BUT they are still what i so-called-my-friends.i don't care if they do talk about me behind my back.because as a matter of fact, no one is perfect.

i don't know what should i write...blur..=(

today

It was like yesterday. I woke up at early morn to sahur and thoughts come through my mind…Thinking of what will I do today, hoping that today is better than yesterday?

Yesterday? I had done nothing. Slept until noon and woke up realizing that I've wasted my time. I should have used those time studying CSP as the test is around the corner. But, this is me. Never put priority in life. Always let the time past by. Never make it worth. I've tried to change, but maybe I don’t try hard or I don’t really want to…always dreaming. Always dreaming to be the best to everyone. But what did I do? NOTHING.

Today, I have plan. (I always have plans, almost everyday I do have plans, even I do have an organizer to organize my daily life, but…it always come out as just a plan). I've plan to go to the library and study CSP. Let’s see what will happen today...=)

Life, have the ups and downs... in my life, I feel like everything going down. It become worse and far worse as the days move on…what will happen if days become a week and week comes to a month…Everything that I do is worthless. Why does everyone never learn to appreciate? They always ask for more. Sometime I’m sick with what people ask me to do, tell me what should I do, can I have my own way? My own life? Why does everyone have to order this and that…and which is worse telling me that I’m wrong. I’m trying to do my best…can’t anyone see that? Gosh! I think it will be better living in mars or Pluto, or any other places that people won’t bother what others are doing. And always correcting other people mistakes and never sees theirs.

at 330pm, me, in the library, trying to find courage to focus on my CSP. targeting to score on the test..people around me, chatting on the ym, finding information through the internet, and talking on their own bahasa, while me, i know what im suppose to do. now, i need some space and time to give my full attention and commitment to my CSP. wish me luck!